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Journey into Fall

Hard to believe that we’re almost at the start of the new school year. That it’s almost fall.

This summer has been hard for a lot of us, and my life hasn’t been an exception to that. I’ve been busy with many, many non-content creation things, including my day job.

I don’t want to go into the negative stuff other than to say fuck cancer.

I’ve pressed pause on a stream schedule for right now, because I am getting the Kidlet ready to head back to school, and I have some big (good) family things coming up.

A lot of streamers seem to be pressing pause as well, and I can’t blame them. We’re in year two of a global pandemic, the stress of that alone has been hard for many of us. I don’t know too many that can say they don’t know someone who hasn’t had or hasn’t lost someone they love from this damn virus.

I’m currently putting together a streaming schedule for the fall (mid-September on to end of October).

This journey has been something. I almost didn’t start because of the sheer negativity of streamers that, still to this day, would like to see me give the eff up and go away. But I’ve met some awesome people, and their encouragement and general positivity has lifted me up.

I’ve also branched out to other streaming sites beyond the big gun of Twitch. I haven’t pulled fully away, but right now with the whole situation of hate raids targeted at minority creators (and no, it’s not just the “Big Guns” who are getting it).

I’ve also been learning what type of content that I want to stream and feature. I legit am one of those people who loves damn near every genre out there. So many games, so little time, really.

So, look for an update from me around mid-September.

Take care of yourselves, stay healthy, get vaccinated, and be excellent to one another.

I’m Back

Of course, I get lyrics from a song in my head after writing I’m back.

But I am slowly coming back to streaming and gaming. I’m able to say I’m back with a measure of confidence now.

I had to take that time off for many reasons, and most of them were related to feeling overwhelmed from everything that was going on around me. Losing our cherished little Chihuahua Ozzy just set me on my butt.

I will not allow myself to get to that point again. Over the past while, my streaming schedule has been a mess because I’m adjusting still to new tech, new location and the Kidlet being home on summer break while the spouse is still work from home.

I’ve started trying to pull a lot of gameplay that I haven’t streamed to create a few highlight type videos. They’ll be up on two sites as I get the chance.

It amazes me that I can create 4K, professional level stuff on my iPad Pro.

https://secretperiwinkle.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/FinalVideo_1625840163.507815-1.mov
Created on my iPad using footage from my Nintendo Switch

I mean, that was created in like a half hour from start to finish. I’ve been doing video editing since S-VHS was a thing, and it never ceases to amaze me that I can pull that off on a mobile device! That I can pop on my Air Pods, fire up some Our Lady Peace, and before I can listen to an entire album, I’ve got something I can put up on YouTube.

You may also have noticed that I’m in the final stages of a visual rebrand. Why? Because during those two months off, I decided that I wanted to embrace certain things, and to be true to myself. My favourite colour is indeed still periwinkle blue (and if you’re a Pantone Nerd like me, that means – 16-4031 TCX, 17-3932 TCX, and 15-3919 TCX are all in the right part of the spectrum), but I’ve always had a love for kawaii things, and I while pink is nowhere near my favourite colour, I don’t have the burning hate that I used to – I still do not like that it’s the colour that is pushed at people who identify as female, but working to smash the system from the inside is totally valid. 😉

I’ll also be putting up more posts and other things here. So stay tuned!

Improvement

As I said in my last entry, the death of my dog really hit me hard. I had felt, for a long time, that I was on a treadmill that kept getting faster and faster. I couldn’t stop that treadmill to take a breath.

But that day, that solidified that I needed to stop for a while. To step back. So, I did.

Since that day, I’ve been working on my mental health, my creative life, and spending extra time with my family. My therapist has made sure, in my appointments since then, that I know that my coping skills are healthy, and that they are seeing improvement every time that we talk.

This is just reenforcing that I made the right choice. That I stopped before my body and soul decided to stop me.

I’ll be extending my break to the end of the month, as I am still working on some improvements to my physical environment. But I think you’ll agree, when you see it, that it was entirely worth it.

I will update with more information when I can. There is a lot going on in my life still, but at least I don’t feel like I’m always on that figurative treadmill.

Take care of yourselves and I will be back soon!

Taking A Break

This is a damn hard thing for me to say. I have prided myself on my ability to push through some tough situations. But this time, I can’t.

As you may know, Tuesday morning, our youngest Chihuahua boy went out for a second morning run after my spouse put our daughter on the bus to head to school. He never came back from that run, and the entire day really has me feeling like I’ve been hit by a train emotionally, physically – pretty much every way you can think.

We never expected what happened that day – that our Ozzy would go into uncontrollable seizures. That we’d have to rush him to the vet and say goodbye in a matter of an hour. I’m quite sure we got through that day on pure adrenaline and now, I’m at least sitting back and really feeling the grief and hurt.

So, I’m taking a bit of a vacation to recharge and regroup. We’re going to get started on the whole studio move early and take the time to find a way that we can honour the memory of the most loving, gentle dog that we have ever met. 
 

I’ve been feeling like I’m on a treadmill that is getting faster and more out of my control lately because I haven’t been able to find a way to stop and get a breath in, to get a true rest. I am taking that time now, because if I don’t I know my body and mind are going to force the issue.

I’ll still be on social media. I’ll still be talking. I just won’t be doing any streaming, or doing anything creative for anyone but me, as part of taking care of myself.

Mark your calendars. I’ll be back around the 15th of May.

Take care of yourselves. <3

It’s Gonna Be May

Well, another month down, and we’re staring at the beginning of May.

Plans for this month, well, I am pressing pause on streaming for two weeks in the middle of the month – exact dates will be announced once the final details are in my hands.

I am hoping to finish The Outer Worlds, and I have a few cute as hell games lined up that I want to stream.

April has not been kind to me – what with the return of allergies from hell, and some family stresses that took it out of me.

May is a big month here. Even bigger this year as it marks the 20th anniversary of Ruaphoc and I getting married. Yep. Two decades as legal spouses, and almost 25 together as a couple, along with two birthdays.

Things are changing behind the scenes, and I am quite happy with how they’re turning out. You’ll see the results soon – I don’t want to ruin the surprises!

Just remember…

may

Level Up

So, in just under a month, I’ll level up.

Yep. I’m getting older. A privilege denied to a lot of people, and more so since this whole pandemic.

Usually, I’d run a Facebook fundraiser for our local children’s hospital on my personal profile, but this year, I wanted to do something a bit different.

This year, I’m raising funds for our local children’s hospital through Extra Life. My kiddo loves it when I do my streams and has asked repeatedly if they can be in one. They have benefited from our local children’s hospital in so many ways, and I feel so blessed that we’re close to such a world class institution.

You can visit my page to donate here, and as usual for my Canadian peeps, they’re a charitable donation that’ll help you on next year’s taxes. I also am planning to do a stream around my birthday – more details on that TBD.

Now, if someone could adjust the damn difficulty level, that would be appreciated. 😉

Stay safe, stay home, and as always stay happy!

April 2021 Game Plan

We’re in the last days of March, and I’m thinking ahead for the next month.

I will be sticking with the three days a week schedule for now.

There are some changes that I’ve got planned, and I’m slowly finding my niche.

I’m also finding myself in other ways – and that is both fun and frightening by turns.

So, you’ll want to follow along at my Twitch channel, every Monday, Wednesday and Saturday.

Aaargh

Aaargh sums up my frustration with technology lately. First it was my audio being funky, and then Sunday night, my install of Diablo 2 decided to not work with my streaming software, and it looks like a Windows update messed it up.

So one thing, then another and then another….

I’m about to go into the forest and scream.

Aaargh !

But I’ll re-evaluate over the week and see what would be a good idea. Also, as we’re coming to the end of the month, I’ll be switching up my games for April.

I’m still learning and working on things when it comes to streaming. I’ll always be learning. It’s just how I’m wired.

Even though I could throw my hands into the air and walk away, I’m going to keep going. I’m stubborn that way. I will keep going, but I do not make any promises about not swearing the entire time.


I’m also re-evaluating a few other things, and I’ll talk about them as it gets closer to completing them. Going to shake up a few things in the next month or so and I can’t wait to see how it all goes.

Change of Plans

Last time I made a post about my plans for March.

Of course, making plans, the universe likes to point, laugh, and go “watch this”.

There is going to be a bit of a change up in my times and some of my games. My current time for streaming was a compromise between personal and work life that wasn’t working (in other words, we gave it a test run, it didn’t work well, now it’s time to go back to the drawing board and produce something new).

Now I’m looking at moving my streams to the early evening in Eastern time (US) same days. Also, The Last Campfire is giving my Windows system fits, and I can’t get the issue resolved, so while I work on that. I’m going to need to figure out another game or fight the uphill battle of using my Mac.

Tomorrow’s retro stream is going to be at the usual time for this week (Feb 28) and the next week, we’ll see about what changes will be made. Same game – Diablo 2: Lord of Destruction, with Bob the Barbarian.

So, look for an update Soon™

Games For March 2021

I’ve been trying to figure out what my plans are for the next few weeks. Right now I want to concentrate on three games for my Tuesday and Thursday streams.

So for the Month of March, those three games are:

1. Genshin Impact

2. The Outer Worlds

3. The Last Campfire

Why the three? Once the first few puzzles are done on The Last Campfire, you can get on a roll and get through the game at a good clip.

So Tuesdays are going to be Genshin Impact, and Thursdays will be either The Outer Worlds or The Last Campfire.

Sunday is a retro stream, and I will be making a decision about my plans for that next week.